Oh dear where to begin. I have not blogged in a while ( as some of you seem to refuse to let me forget) so here i am again, giving my neglected keyboard some love. The reason (or excuse whatever you want to call it) why i haven't been blogging is that i have nothing to blog about. Some of you may think that I have plenty of things to blog about, but more recently i have discovered the never ending schedule of my life. I hope that i am the only one who feels this because it is quite depressing. I feel as if everything that i do i have already done before and can't find any new exciting twists in life. I suppose part of it is my own pessimistic nature but I'm not entirely sure that it is not actually happening to me. I find myself waking up in the morning and just not wanting to get up, not because i am sick or anything but because i just don;t have anything to get up for. I have formed this nasty habit of turning off my alarm clock and going back to sleep( its lucky i have parents or else i would be late for school everyday). I try to break the constant sames in my life, but i have had little success. There have been small victories, like the Marinade which i thought went very well, but i always go back to the same painstaking routine. Today was a terrible reminder of that. Now that you have heard my rant I want to give you some good news. God has shown me some light at the end of the tunnel. When i turn 16 I plan to get a job( or try at least ) which will be a new thing for me. I will also have a car or, "enchilada of freedom" to quote a movie that i love so much which will help me to break out of the schedule. I also see more darkness. I have a feeling that once i settle into a job and having a car I will still have a routine, just a new one. I saw it happen to my brother( I hope he can take routine though because if he cant then the military was a bad choice ). So i am confused and unsure of what my future holds. I have been praying a lot for a clear look into my future, but I have a feeling the fog will not lift anytime soon. I ask only that you would pray for me and give me any advise you might have. Thank you.
-Drewski
3 comments:
Drew, thanks for sharing. I think everybody goes through periods of time like this, and ask questions like there has to be more to life than this. I know I have. Taking pleasure in small thing can make all the difference. I look forward to spring and growing a garden. You might try just a single plant. (I had a Venus fly trap when I was sixteen, it was cool when it ate flies and meat.)
I also thought that the marinade went well, and I thought you did a great job leading the prayer walk.
I feel sorta the same. Life is just on big bland routine.
have you seen iron man yet?
if you haven't you really should.
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